Lip Sync star Chrissy Teigen is tired of being canceled just months after she was banished from social media for cyberbullying several other celebrities.
“Iiiii don’t really know what to say here…just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter sh-t in real life,” Teigen complained on Instagram. “Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race. But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer.”
For reference, Teigen and her singer husband John Legend have been on vacation in Italy with their children for weeks.
“I feel lost and need to find my place again, I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay,” she whined. “I’m not used to any other way!! Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot. Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it.”
Teigen was accused of bullying then-teenager Courtney Stodden, who she told to commit suicide over Twitter. After Stodden came forward, child star Lindsay Lohan, Project Runway designer Michael Costello, and Teen Mom Farrah Abraham came forward with similar allegations.
“And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong,” Teigen continued. “It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow. All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just…tired of being sick with myself all day.”
The model has apologized multiple times on social media, and in a long post on Medium, since the scandal broke.