‘I Was Bonded to the Devil’: Singer Reveals Toll of Multiple Abortions

Kaya Jones, a former singer for The Pussycat Dolls, said the abortions she had when she was younger still haunt her and warns that “you will regret it your whole life.” Jones told Christine Yeargin, host of the Students for Life’s “Speak Out” podcast, that she’d had three abortions before she found her Christian faith. Her first abortion came after her birth control medication failed and she also was told to have an abortion while in the Pussycat Dolls. After having one abortion, she said it became easier to have more.

“After the first one, you don’t think you’ve done anything wrong. It’s been normalized and what is a line until you’ve crossed it. You don’t know what a line is. Once you cross that line, it’s a very slippery slope to continue to cross those lines,” she recalled. Jones described the music industry as abusive and said it left her with low self-esteem which lead her to poor choices. But she said that a defining moment for her came shortly after her third abortion, when two little girls looked up at her during a concert.

“Nothing on me in that moment said, ‘Caution, this is a lie,’” she recalled. “There was nothing beautiful about me. I was tainted. I was destructive. I was destroyed. I was completely enchained and bonded to the devil, or the enemy, or the realm of death if you will, where I was living in my worst self,” she said. Jones does not want other women to have to go through what she did and says the Holy Spirit is compelling her to speak out.

“I’ve gone through it all. I will assure you, you will regret it your whole life. Nothing – even if I become a mother tomorrow and happily married and all is well, I’m still going to regret the three children I did not have,” she said. “It is very painful. There is a lot of anger. There’s a lot of frustration. There’s a lot of lack of knowledge. There’s a lot of regret. And nothing can make that go away but God himself when you lay it at his feet and ask for salvation.”

Alexander J. Williams III